I’ve
said it before and I’ll say it again: There is a massive collection of things
that scare me. Spiders, change, and clowns all rank somewhere within the top
ten of my fears list, but so far the biggest one that I’ve had to deal with is
the uncertainty of what college life will bring me, especially as a dorming
freshman.
Even
though I’m not exactly far from home (maybe an hour and fifteen minutes on a
day with bad interstate traffic), I’m kind of afraid that I’ll forget something
at home that I desperately need. I don’t take any extensive medications, so
that’s good, but what if I forget something important like my cell phone
charger or day planner? I have no way to get home, and to bother my parents to
drive an hour or more out of their way at the very last minute is a little much
to me. So hopefully in the upcoming days before move-in day (August 24th!)
I’ll remember to pack everything
that I might need.
That
last one was a relatively small fear, but here’s a bigger one I have: What if I
can’t seem to make friends? I thought that I was halfway decent at it in high
school, but there we pretty much all shared the same middle school, elementary
school, and primary school as well. In such a tiny
everybody-knows-everybody-else sort of town, you find friends easily and
quickly and keep them at least until you graduate for the most part. But in
college, everyone is completely different. I will know two other people from my
school who are going to D’Youville in the fall, but neither of them are
dorming, neither of them are in my major, and even though we’re taking General
Ed courses, there’s absolutely no guarantee that I’ll be seeing either of them
throughout my day. This lack of familiarity with my surroundings and my underlying
fear of being too irritating or annoying to attract any real friends has me
nervous to the point of queasiness. Going to college without a support system
in place is dangerous, and the last thing I need in my life is dangerous instability.
Finally,
the biggest thing that I’m worried about right now is losing the connection
that I already have with a lot of my friends from high school. It was easy to
make plans and hang out in high school because with the exception of work or
other extracurricular activities, everyone pretty much had the same schedule to
work around, and we saw each other all the time in class and in the halls. Being
so far away from some of my closest friends makes physical bonding time
extremely difficult, and I can only hope that through the use of all that
modern technology has to offer us – Skype, texting, and the wonders of social
media like Facebook and Twitter – my friends and I can continue to keep in
touch and never lose the beauty that was our friendship throughout high school.
What
about you, dear viewer? Do you have any fears about this coming school year,
or, if you aren’t in school yet/anymore, do you ever fear what might happen in the future? Tell me in
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